Well here we are on day 41 of 140 days that Scott will be gone. It is 9pm and the kids are all sleeping. Carson just woke up with a cramp in his leg and i had to rub it out for him, then he needed a hug and kiss so he got them. Poor kid, he broke his left leg about 4 months ago and he had to have a cast for about 5 weeks, when it came off he really didnt want to put any pressure on it, but after about 2 weeks he started using it properly, today i had to take him in to see the doctor because these past few weeks he has been falling all over the place, you should see his arms and legs:( poor baby. So i took him in and now she wants to get a xray of it to rule out hip dysplasia, so i have to take him in tomorrow to get that done.

We will start at the beginning - When he was about 6months old Chase sat on Carson's left leg and i had to take him to the hospital (that was scary) and they took xrays and told me that he may end up with hip problems later on in life, especially when he started walking, well when he started walking at 9months i thought nothing of it because he was walking and he never complained that it hurt. So just before he turned 3 in April this year, he started spraining (minor) his left ankle almost every month, and i thought it was just kids being kids. So i thought nothing of that, well in May of this year his daycare providers dog (big dog, mastiff i think) came shooting out the door and Carson didnt see him coming and got knocked over and broke his ankle, we thought it just another sprain because he didnt scream when we touched it he just wouldnt put any pressure on it, and if he did he screamed. That night he had an xray and the technician looked at me and whispered "its broken", so of course i was freaking out, you know, my 3 year old baby boy broke his leg, i felt so bad for him, so we got a cast put on and 3 weeks later we got a walking cast on and he was awesome with that thing on, man could he move. Anyway at the end of June he got it off and for about 2weeks wouldnt really put pressure on it, so we thought it was because he just got the cast off and he wasnt too sure he could use it. Well about a week and a half ago he started tripping over his feet and falling and scraping himself up all the time, and now we are here with the xray that needs to be done tomorrow and i feel so bad for him.

Everyone keeps telling me that something is wrong and im just shrugging it off because nothing bad can happen to my kids right? Wrong! Oh well i mean he can walk on it but when he runs he kind of limps and his left foot bows in towards the floor and it is 1cm shorter then his right. Could that be the problem? Or is it because Chase sat on it when Carson was 6months old?

On to Chase, he really needs to go to school (he doesnt start until the 11th) because he needs a release for all his energy. Hes like the energizer bunny, he keeps going and going and going and going. I usually know he is ready for bed when he starts whining at everything i say to him. Or when he starts bugging the girls or Carson and not leaving them alone. He is really a good kid, he just has so much energy that it is hard to keep his occupied all the time, especially with 3 other kids that need attention because Daddy isnt here.

The kids miss him terribly and so do i. The kids are so much better behaved when Scott is home, he doesnt usually have as many problems as i do when he is here. I like being able to take care of the kids without him here, but i am also relieved that he is coming home when he manages to get here. He is the best dad ever and i dont know what i would do without him.

We are going to be married for 5yrs on the 4th and i am so happy, i dont think ive been happier, which is kind of sad. Well ok the kids make me happy too!

So it has been awhile since i have updated. The last time i updated it was 3 days until the twins turned 1, well they have been 1 for about 2 weeks now and they are getting bigger and bigger everyday. I took April in for her 1 yr appt and she is doing so well, she is 23lbs up from 6lbs at birth, and 30in up from 18in at birth. She is eating well, sleeping well, pooping well and she is just and all around happy happy baby. She is almost walking, she is now standing on her own in the middle of the floor and she is walking across the room with a walking toy she got for their birthday. She can say mama and dada and baba and uh oh! She is just so happy and i love her tons.

For their birthday they got some clothes and a couple of toys. Aggie got a walking toy and she loves it, and April got a sweet sprinkler type toy. You hook it up to the hose and they get sprinkled with the water and there are like 5 toys to play with, there is a star fish horseshoe game, a dolphin u can ride, a whale slide, a little sun shade and just lots and lots of water. We call it a pool but its really a really big sprinkler for babies, but with all the crappy weather we have been having we havent really used it that much. When we do have good weather its not when Scott is here and i cant watch 4 kids with water by myself.

Scott had a couple of weeks of for summer holidays so .... we decided to catch some toads for the boys. We went to the thrift shop in town and got a old fish tank that we converted into a toad tank, we put in some soil, a little dish full of water, a plant and a log, The tank has a top on it with a place for lights inside so we put that on during the day and turn it off at night. We (well I right now) have to go out during the day and catch about 6 grasshoppers for them to eat and then put them into the tank without letting the toads in or the grasshoppers out. Since today has been all rainy i havent been able to catch them any dinner so they havent eaten all day and i feel bad, but there really isnt much i can do about it. Hopefully ill be able to get them some tomorrow and then i will just catch more and more from now on instead of only 5 or 6. Their names are Toadie and Jumpy, they are eastern grey tree frogs or (tetraploids), Toadie is the big one and he likes to hang out on the log all day, and Jumpy is small and green and he likes to hang out on the plant all day. Toadie also really likes sitting in the water all night, i always check on them before i go to bed, and once in the middle of the night and he is always in the water dish, hes so cute.

While we were in Hamilton on vacation we got to see alot of people and take lots of pictures and we also got our cat Cookie back. We had 2 before i got pg with Chase, but when he was about 1 he became allergic (or so we thought), so we gave them to Scott's sister to watch for us with the intention that if we wanted them back we could take them back. Well Ice (my most fav cat EVER) ended up passing away, apparently someone thought it would be funny to break her jaw, and it was going to cost too much to get it repaired and even then it was only like 40% chance that it would work, so we made the decision to put her down ;(,. Anyway i really wanted to get a cat and Scott was talking about it with his mom and she said that we could take her back when we came down in Aug. So i jumped right on that and we brought her back here when we came back and she has been awesome ever since. We are so blessed that we have awesome pets. She doesnt bite, scratch or hiss at the kids. She is right now sitting on my lap watching me type this up.

So now we have a dog, Jake, a cat, Cookie, a hamster, Percy, and two toads, Toadie and Jumpy. All we need now is a rabbit! LoL!

They are all at the same house for daycare now, thank god! Mel now has April and Carson and Carma has Aggie and Chase, she will have Chase the days that he does not go to school, which is awesome for me. I still have some more back to school stuff that i need to get for Chase, some socks and some jammys and some more pants, but we should be ok.

So this is saturday and Scott is NOT home, according to him, there were some of the students who couldnt keep their rooms clean, so instead of just those people being punished ALL of them got punished, so I had the kids all day today and they are all still here and i am still sane. I cant believe i did it on my own, AND there werent any major freakouts WOO HOO go me!!!!!!!!

My friend is going to be coming by tomorrow with her two boys so that i am not alone all day again with kids i cant take outside because its freaking raining.

i am so sad to say, my twins are turning 1 on the 10th (3 DAYS!!!). I am sad because they are the last babies we will ever have (im only 27 and Scott is 28) and they are growing up way too fast. They are almost walking and they are talking up a storm. I am going to miss the days where they were so tiny none of their clothes fit. Oh so TINY!Scott is coming home tonight for 15 days of vacation. We are going to Hamilton to visit our families, we are also having a little party with my parents to celebrate the girls birthday and Scotts as well (his is on the 12th). We are going to be getting two mini cupcakes and gettting their names written on the top and a number 1 candle. Woot going to be SO cute! We ended up getting them a twins doll gift, one is in a pink outfit (April) and a purple outfit (Agnes) soooo cute, and we are wrapping one half in pink and one half in purple!We were suppose to take Jake (our dog) with us and leave him at Scott's parents house for the week, but his dad called and told us last weekend that he doesn't want Jake there because he was bitten by a dog while delivering papers and now he is afraid of dogs (rolls eyes). He is Manic Depressive Paranoid Pshychotic, he is off his meds because he is always getting sick on them, he has been off of them since Scott and I got married in 2004, so sometimes he can act a little weird, hence why we aren't allowed to bring Jake with us. Even though his dad knows Jake and loves him, he is just over paranoid that Jake is going to bite him. I asked my parents if we could bring Jake there but alas they have an older dog who does not do well with other dogs. So now we are rushing around trying to find someone to take care of Jake for us while we are gone and we leave on Monday!Hopefully we find someone soon!Chase and Carson have been total terrors this last week. Chase has been on more timeouts this week then i can count last month. And Carson well he keeps acting out, I think its because Scott isnt here and he wants attention since I am giving so much to the twins.Carson has a really bad cold and now the girls are getting a runny noses and April coughing and hacking, Aggie is just little miss cranky when she is sick so it is really hard for her to sleep through the night when she is sick. Last night she got up at 2 and we had to hang out for an hour before she would even consider going back to bed, then April was up at 4 because when she is sick she gets the runs, so I had to change her and she is teething so she has a rash all over her face and she just looks mighty sad when she is sick.April has been trying to take Aggie's earrings out and so I had to get a set of earrings where they are really hard to get out. They are their birthstone, peridot. They look so dang cute.Anyway the day is super nice out so I am going to go hang outside with Jake for a little bit

Well now I have 112 days left until Scott comes home from course. I miss him when he is not here, he usually talks me down when I am going crazy because of the kids. He has holidays coming up soon, so, YAY! :D Anyway the past couple of nights have been pretty bad, the girls are staying up later and not sleeping as late, they are both teething and have rashes on their faces, and are both so picky when it comes to eating food. I never know what to make because they only have so many teeth to use to chew and I dont need them choking on me.The boys are now in daycare. I booked them in at the Petawawa Military Family Resource Center of (PMFRC/FRC) so I dont have to take them every where with me anymore. YAY :D I also just found Carson and daycare to start at the end of August after we get back from holidays. She is super nice and he likes it there so WOO HOOChase is just going to be at the FRC until he starts school in September. My baby boy is growing up, he is going into Senior Kindegarten. :( He knows how to write his name now, and he does it everywhere LoL, he has learned so much in the last year since starting JK and I cant believe how smart he is. Carson is super smart too, he is only 3 but he knows just about as much as Chase does and he didnt even go to school this year.The girls are just so damn cute especially when they play tag around my chair, or crawl all over eachother in the playpen or on the floor, April is the bigger so she thinks it is ok to beat the poop out of Aggie. Aggie of course always cries for her mommy and is so clingy when April hurts her, its so sad. I hope she learns to stick up for herself soon.The house is clean, the kids are at daycare, the dishes are done, the dog is happy and im going outside to hang out in the nice weather

Well another weekend has gone by, and Scott is back in Borden. The weekend kind of sucked, it rained and was cold and was just miserable, but the boys had fun in the pool when it was nice for all of 5 minutes. LoL. We re-filled the hot tub as well, and found the boys a nice toad who Chase named Mr Toady, we also caught him some grasshoppers and he demolished the big one in one big chomp. I missed it but the boys and Scott said it was so cool.I have both boys for the rest of the week as their old daycare provider has been posted to a different base :( I am now in the process of interviewing new providers for Carson (he is 3) and am not happy with the one i saw today, her house smells funny, the kitchen is hot and cramped, the basement (where the kids play) is dirty and not carpeted, the backyard is just a big mud pit and she seems a little off. Hopefully the one i go to see tomorrow is much better and then I will be rid of him for the summer and I will only have to watch Chase during the day until he starts Senior Kindegarten in Sept.I have nothing to do during the day and I keep telling myself I should get a job, but when talking to my councillor she says I should give myself until the last day of Scott's course, that way if I breakdown again he is here to help me and I wont have to do it all myself. Taking care of the kids at night can be hectic sometimes but when they smile at me and tell me that they love me it is all worth it in the end. I love my kids more than anything in the world but like every family out there, there are times when I need some time to myself.Carson is taking a nap upstairs in his room, Chase is napping on the couch in front of me here, the dog is napping on the carpet beside me, I am looking at the nice clean house and am watching tv.The girls are at daycare and I miss them, I cant wait to pick them up at the end of the day and bring them home to watch them as they learn new things. Aggie (the smaller one) has 7 teeth and is working on her 8th, she is becoming pretty brave by letting go of things to try and walk, and she knows the sign for more. April is popping her 3rd tooth and not letting go of things yet she is content just to crawl around on the floor and play with her brothers and she also knows the sign for more. Daddy has been teaching them signs for milk and more, they are so smart.Anyway nothing much more to write about so I am just gonna go hang out outside in the nice sun.

well there are 119 days left until Scott comes home from his course. The morning did not start off that well, the girls were up at 630am and cranky and poopy, so i changed them and gave them a bottle, then i had a quick shower since i knew that the boys would be up soon. They got up at 7am, they played in their room for a bit, the girls came downstairs with me and had some puffed wheat and yogurt, then the boys came down and we had breakfast and went out and played outside before we left for daycare. Chase decided that while mommy was busy tending to his sisters that he would take a rock to the side of her van and scratch the crap out of it. There is a huge scratch down the left hand passenger sliding door and on the left hand drivers door as well. So he went on a time out until we left for daycare (about 10 mins) then he also went on time out when he got to the sitters as i was still mad at him.My day alone went well, i went shopping and then came home and hung out in the nice weather and tanned, i took the dog for a walk, and cleaned the house.I went to pick up the kids at 330pm and Carson didnt want to leave, Chase was being rude to the sitter and they didnt want to put their seatbelts on. Then we went to go pick the girls up and Chase didnt feel like helping mommy so i had to get one of the ladies to help me get the bags and the girls in the van to go home. We got home and the boys were pretty good and the girls were cranky so we came inside to play. I played with the girls for a bit while the boys kept themselves occupied with the tv and their cars.I was making dinner and trying to keep the girls occupied as well, so i was feeding them as well as keeping an eye on the dinner and Chase and Carson were constantly hurting eachother so i told them to just stay on time out until dinner was ready. We were sitting and eating and Chase didnt want the hotdogs and Carson didnt want to eat at all. The girls ate really well for once, Chase finished his dinner so i washed some cherries for him and he ate some of those, Carson didnt want the dinner but he wanted cherries so i told him he needed to finish his dinner and he could have some cherries, well the girls were done so i cleaned them up a little and put them in the living room to play while i was cleaning the kitchen after dinner, Chase was in there playing and all of a sudden Aggie starts screaming and crying so i asked Chase what he did to her and he told me nothing, so i kept asking him and he kept denying it. I told him to go on timeout until he wanted to tell me what he did and then he told me that he KICKED AGGIE IN THE FACE because she was playing with one of his many millions of toys that he wasnt even playing with at that time, so he went right to bed.I took the girls upstairs to give them a bath and put them to bed since they were so cranky and i left Carson downstairs to eat (hes 3 he knows what to do) and when i came back down he told me that he was done eating, when i asked him where it was he looked at the garbage can, i looked inside and he had thrown his dinner out, so he went right to bed as well.I called Scott for some ideas on disciplining Chase for what he did today (the scratches and the kicking) and he didnt have any ideas. I tried to take away his fave toys and he didnt care, i told him i was gonna take his money and use it to fix the van and he didnt care, i dont know what else to do, he is stubborn just like his mom, and he does not care about the consequences. I think i just need to sleep on it and see if something pops up.It is now 840pm and the house is quiet. The kitchen is clean. The laundry is done and packed away. The floors are vacuumed and clean. The dog is laying beside me and i am resting for the night.

Well it has been about a week since i last journaled, today is day 15 of the 140 that Scott will be gone, this weekend we drained and refilled the pool, and drained the hot tub, i still need to refill it. Today was a councilor day today and it went awesome, she is so easy to talk to and to make laugh, i always look forward to seeing her on Tuesdays. Last night April woke up and 11 with a fever of 100.3 so i gave her some tylenol and snuggled with her for about 25 mins and then she went back down,. This morning when she woke up she was totally fine, then just about 1 hr ago she woke up again with another fever, so again with the tylenol and snuggles. Shes so cuddly and cute when she is sick, but oh man is she ever cranky.Today when the girls woke up Aggie was in a bad mood, she didnt want her bottle and she didnt want any food, so when i dropped her off at daycare i told the sitter that she was in a bad mood, but apparently she was ok all day, so when i picked her up i put her down for a nap and she slept for about 45 mins, woke up cranky and i didnt know why, so i just kept trying to feed her and get her to play but she didnt want to, so i just let her watch me cook dinner in her highchair and she finally calmed down when i gave her some frozen yogurt. Then she did not want to have a bath or go to bed, so i played with her for a bit, when i was going to put her down thats when April woke up, April just went back down again.Chase and Carson had to go to bed early because they were so tired and cranky from spending the day at the sitters and playing on the trampoline and in the dirt etc etc. Carson went on a few million time outs from when we got home at 4pm to the time he went to bed at 7pm. Same with Chase, i dont know why the feel it necessary to pick on eachother but they do it and then they dont like the consequences.The dog is being all lethargic today because of the heat, and its not even that hot out. I turned the AC on for the first time today, and we are suppose to be getting some big heat wave sometime this week, i may need to take the dog in if he doesnt start eating and drinking.I talked to Scott for a bit too, i miss him, he is my rock and my life, i dont know what i would do without him, and he loves me even with all the flaws i have. :)Well im going to go watch Hell's Kitchen now.

So today is day 8 of 140 days of Scott being gone. He is in Borden on a course (he is in the army), and when he is done he will be qualified to do his job and we will be making a little bit more money as well.This is the second time he has tried to leave me with the four kids, the first time was in October when he first went to do his course, I had just had the twins in August and he thought that I would be okay since my mom would be here to help (alot of help she was lol but I still love her to death, she means well!)Well about 3 weeks after he left I ended up in the hospital after having a major breakdown (I was diagnosed with PPD) and I had to call him back home. So he did the first 3 weeks which is good. Anyway, when he came home the army told him to take the rest of his parental leave (the idea was he would take 2 months off and go on course, then take the rest when he got back from his course) so that would take him to May.He asked the army if he could go on the February course, but alas they told him no because it was in the middle of his parental and they strongly urged (meaning told him without a choice) that he needed to take the rest of it. So he took all of it and we got some daycare for the kids (all four) which is subsidised by the government so we only end paying something like 30% of the cost and they pay the rest.So we had that set up in April for when he went back to work. It has been awesome having them in daycare because I can get alot of things done around the house that I cant get done when the kids are here.He is training to become an Electronic-Optronic Technician in the army, meaning that he fixes all the stuff that breaks down, like telescopes, binoculars, lasers, etc.He had joined the reserves when he still lived at home at 17, he met me when he was 20 and I was 18. When we had been together for a while I ended up getting pregnant with Chase, my oldest, he was an oops but the best oops ever! Anyway Scott joined the regular force as it was alot better pay and steadier work, meaning he would be working everyday for the rest of his life instead of only when the needed him.We lived in the basement at his parents house until Chase was 4 months old, at which time we moved to Borden in Ontario, where I got pregnant with Carson and had Carson, then he finished that course and we were posted to Gagetown in New Brunswick, where I got pregnant with the April and Aggie.After we found out we were having twins he asked to be posted back to Ontario so that we were closer to family to help with the kids. I love it here but I miss Borden, we bought a house and we need to fix it up before we move but when that is done we are going to ask to be moved back to Borden. Borden is only 2 hrs away as opposed to 7 hrs away from where we are now. We are in Petawawa which is near Ottawa.The army life is hard but totally worth it since the vacation time is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!

Well Scott left for Borden 2 Sundays ago, on the 5th of July, he comes home on the weekends so that gives me a nice break from everything, he loves the kids soooooo much and he is an awesome daddy to them, awesome husband too!So I wake up in the mornings and get the twins ready, change, feed, and make sure they are ready to go to daycare, then while I am taking a shower the boys are getting dressed and ready to go. When I am done getting myself ready, I feed the boys breakfast while I get things together for the twins. I drop Aggie off at her providers house about 845am, chat with provider for a bit, then (if it was a regular day) I take April next door to her providers house, chat with her for a bit but it is not a regular day as her provider is on holidays so I have to take her to the FRC (Family Resource Center), then hop back in the van and take the boys to their providers house which is on base, it is about a 15 min drive to get there, only 4 mins to the girls providers houses. I come home and clean up a bit, you know bottles, dishes and the like. Then I take a break and rest, then the rest of the day is spent doing things for myself, grocery shopping, computer stuff and such. Then at about 315pm I hop in the van and grab April first at 330pm, drive 2 mins down the road and grab the boys, then make the trip off base (which at that time of day the traffic is backed up to the other side of the base with everybody trying to get home before everyone else) and usually we are sitting at the light for a good 5 mins before I even make it off the base to get Aggie, then we come home and the boys play for a bit outside, Aggie will usually go down for a nap but April hangs with us outside. At about 500pm we come in the house and I make dinner, sometimes something easy sometimes something not so easy lol.After dinner the boys go back outside to play while I feed the girls some fruit and clean the kitchen up. I go hang with the boys for a bit, at which time April is super cranky because she has been up for awhile, so at about 615pm I take her upstairs and give her a bath and put her to bed, the boys watch some tv while Aggie plays in the living room. At about 700pm I take the boys upstairs with Aggie and bath them all at the same time, well technically I only bath Aggie as the boys can bath themselves. Then I put her to bed, the boys come downstairs for a snack, then they go to bed at about 800pm unless they are super cranky and bad in which case they go to bed right after snack time. Then I watch some tv and play on my computer and then I end up going to bed at about 1000pm, and since Scott is in Borden we usually talk at about that time, whether he calls me or I call him. Then I am usually done for the day and am in bed and sleeping at 1100pm.Then my day starts all over again!